I used to picture what it'd be like when I see you again, but I never knew it'd happen this soon. Finding out only moments before you came, I told myself I just want to be at peace. Casting aside how hostile and unfriendly I thought I'd be, I surprised myself by greeting you with a friendly "hi".
I thought I'd never be able to let go of all that has happened, but seeing you tonight changed everything. Because, I saw myself in you. I struggled to get by every single day for the past two months, it has been extremely overwhelming. I can't say it's comparable because our circumstances are different. But this is something I truly wish nobody will ever be put through. And I'm sorry you were. Regardless of what you did, or how much I resent you, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry we had to meet tonight. Perhaps it might have been easier if we didn't. I don't blame you for not knowing what to say, or for being extremely distant. (I really wouldn't know what I'd do either.) Instead, I wish I knew what to say to make up for all that you didn't deserve. But I doubt anything will ever be enough. It never will be. I absolutely hate what I'm going through now, but I hate that I put you through all that even more.
(Maybe this is how life gets back at me.)